I've realized. . that one day, I'll pack up and die. Though, it is a great fear of mine. . not knowing when or how I will. Though, it's a fear in general for the human population; the fact that you know nothing of a certain thing. I wish I could not fear it. . but Death, regardless of how you put it; cannot be NOT feared. It's tough.
That is why. . I want to live my life with a carefree feeling. With no regrets and enjoy it with my friends and family. I admire the people who already do. But. . I also realize that. . maybe at some points in life, you will be reminded of the problems stated above. So what do you do then? it's mere will power that can shatter it.
I have high expectations in life nowadays. . Thanks to two great friends, They've made me realize something important. They may not know it and they may not see this but they surely have impacted my life.
I have high goals in life, maybe that is why I give up easily. You can't just set high standards and expect to achieve it, no matter who you are. You have to set standards around your comfort and build off of it. I realize that I will never meet my celeberity crush Kwon Yuri or have a single conversation with her. Maybe because she's Korean and I'm sure she wouldn't understand a lot of the things I would talk about. But that is still something I realize. . and yet. . and yet I live my days like i would. This is something I do not understand.
It's more than mere admiration and obsession. This is something else. I feel like, I feel like I could meet her and have that conversation that I've always wanted with her. . no matter the person to tell me that it is a longshot. Life is only given meaning by the person who set foot on land first. Everything is built around that sole person. .
Everyone is contradicting. . no matter the person. That is how people are. . and how they always will be. That statement is contradicting itself. . though, it sounds so right.
Another random vent/rant. . I feel better now. . .
Here's to future lady luck. .
- Vinh. H Nguyen.
About Me
- Vinh Nguyen
- Rochester, NY, United States
- Hello, I am Vinh. Nice to meet you, whoever you may be. There's a lot to me, to begin with, maybe a bit too much to put into a description. So I guess I'll throw in the simple things like my likes and dislikes. I like Writing, Drawing, and Music; Simple. I dislike spiders, the fact of not knowing something, and heights?. . maybe. :)
Thursday, March 11, 2010
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